Hi! I know, lame title, right? Well, about 24 hours ago I was up in the middle of the night, just as I am now. I was writing my butt off on here. I was talking about profound thoughts I had, things I'd learned, what's been going on, etc. I even had a few parts that were actually humorous! Then I hit publish. That is when it all went away. It made me sad. Ok. So...on to now.
I am not planning on going into a lot of detail this time. Just reporting. With doctor's consent and lots of blood work, Tuesday I started a juice fast. I was fascinated with "fat,sick, and nearly dead" when I saw it on instant watch on netflix a few weeks ago. In it, the men do a 60 day juice fast. They were both in bad health and were desperate for a change. They had a lot of success. So, a few days after I watched the movie, a friend started her fast. She's on day 18 and feels great. The only thing I can say is that I'm drinking the minimum juice and need to kick it up some, I don't need to be stupid and starve myself. I've learned and noticed TONS of things but now isn't the time to write them here. When I weighed myself this time last night I was down either 12 or 15 lbs, depending on whether the doctors scale matches ours or not. Either way, I am finishing day 4 now. So, for day 3, those numbers aren't bad! My back is feeling LOTS better already. My leg, still hurting. But, enough of that for now! There will be plenty more to report. I am going to the farmer's market tomorrow. I'll round up the remains of my spinach, apples, etc in the morning so I can juice before I go.
Mother in law ran away today. She and hubby got into a fight, she was completely in the wrong and was totally acting like a child. She even threatened to smack him in his face. Really? Basically, she lied, I witnessed it, and when he said "mom, you just lied" she freaked out. It was ugly and my blood pressure went sky high. So, she yelled "I hate living here" (oh, the irony in that statement) and he said "then leave". She slammed her door (I HATE that..how old is she?) then, an hour later her son came to get her (the other son) and she packed a bunch of stuff, including a bunch of stuff from the kitchen, and her dog and left. Hubby told her that he could have helped her, he wasn't mad at her, etc. She wouldn't speak to him. 45 minutes later she asked if she could come back. Man..for 45 minutes I was SO excited. But, she told him she'd be back in a few days.
My beloved laptop just up and died the other day. No reason, no warning. My c-pap machine died tonight. Well, it's not "dead" yet, but it is possessed. My son had knocked it over earlier and the water from the humidifier must have gotten into the machine. Thank God I have a backup cpap, it doesn't work right but it will hopefully do for now. I've already emailed my wonderful cpap man. My laptop, I'm hoping it makes a miraculous healing like my old one. I am on the old one now. The poor little thing looks so sad and lonely. I want them BOTH to work!
Finances suck since I'm basically unemployed right now, and unemployable. I told hubby I would just go get a job anywhere and he pointed out that I am having trouble just walking around. Good point. Plus they don't want someone who looks as I do. So, yeah, we need a miracle with finances. We've had a miracle every month, so, God can do all things!
In spite of the reports of this week, I am doing ok. I am trying to focus on bettering my health regardless of the circumstances. I am learning a lot. I would love to be able to do the fast for the 60 days, then the proper transition, then my own smart eating after that. I have to do this. I am feeling good though. I now understand that it will pass. My cravings, my feelings, etc. When I am cooking for the family and want so badly to eat their food, it passes. It's not worth it to ruin my fast. But, it's 3 am and I have a farmers market to go to in a few hours.
Oh! one more thing! My weight is down and my sugar has been down below 125 3 times this week! Amazing! Miracle! Woot Woot! lol