Hi! It's sad that I spend several minutes trying to decide which color and font I'll use. I probably shouldn't be allowed near a computer right now, considering my mind isn't functioning at its best. But, here I am! I've been down pretty hard for 5 days now with the flu. Now I see why people get vaccinated against this. Hubby had it two weeks ago and was down super mega hard for about 3 days. I also have a UTI and an infection in my finger. I've only heard of this finger infection thing one time before, when someone was hospitalized for it. I thought it was a spider bite, apparently it is common to think that. So, yeah, it basically has felt like my thumb is broken and it's swollen. It's better today than it was. I bumped it earlier and THAT hurt! It's really weird how things can happen to us and how much one little thing can affect us. So, while I have the flu and two infections I have to watch my blood sugar to make sure it doesn't get too high. Healing doesn't happen when it's high. So, all of this while still dealing with chronic pain too makes me down pretty hard. I'm ready to be better, and yes, I'll take my vitamins!
I was just looking at random pics and thought I'd post a few. I posted a pic of our new firepit, we've used it twice and I LOVE it. Hubby called my a pryo. So, maybe I liked big flames just a little. The bear, well, he was the last one in the store and was half price. He wanted me to take him home and I didn't. Wasn't he cute??
Anyway, it's a shame I've had all of this down time but got nothing accomplished, my mind isn't functioning properly..ask my husband! Just getting up to make sure my family isn't starving or pushing flu preventative pills on them wears me out. On a good note, since I haven't made it to the store, we are going through our freezers and using up things we've needed to use up. Sad, but true. I've looked at several people's blogs and have found some I really like. They do some awesome things and save money, make great food, etc. I've been thinking about planting a garden. I'm just not sure where to start. Our soil isn't the greatest. I'd love the satisfaction that comes from growing my own produce. I grew up helping in our gardens when I was living with my dad, so I know how much work goes into it and what I would need to do. I need to start deciding quickly what I want to do and how I want to do it.
Meanwhile, I've enjoyed work lately. I love the children and my co-workers. I miss them since I've been sick. Thinking about actually doing weight watchers, but not where I pay and go, just where I'm doing the plan along with my co-workers. They have been completely denying themselves anything yummy. I've learned the hard way that complete deprivation doesn't work for me. My middle child has kept me very busy. Between her cheerleading, band and now basketball too...she keeps me busy running around and spending money on her! The oldest and youngest each have their own problems too. The youngest is having a hard time in school right now I am just learning. I need to get healthy and get myself back to work so I have much needed money for bills. I need to stay healthy for my family!
I know my blog is rather boring, which is weird because I'm usually a goofball. Anyway, I hope everyone is staying healthy.
Ms X
A friend was telling me about these horrible shots she gets in her thumbs last night, it sounds like pure torture. The experience makes the grown men with her pass out, and/or throw up. It had me thinking about a recent experience I had getting my blood drawn, which made me think about an experience I had many years ago getting my blood drawn. (Though neither experience remotely compares to her shots).
Many years ago I went to the hospital with my mother-in-law. When we got to go back with the nurse, my mother-in-law rudely informed the nurse that she was saying my name wrong. I immediately defended the nurse and apologized for my mother-in-law's rude behavior. (I also took the opportunity to remind the woman that this was NOT my actual mother) My mother-in-law continued to be rude and I continued to apologize for her, ask her to stop, and tried to smooth things over with the nurse. Later, when the nurse had to take my blood, I said "Can't you just take hers please?" (referring to my mother-in-law) and the nurse said "I'd LOVE to". So, never be rude to someone who may be poking you with a needle later.
A few weeks ago I had to have blood work done. I don't know where my brain was that day, because all of the signs were there that I should NOT allow the woman to take blood from me. Our interaction pretty much went like this...
"I only get one chance, I only get one chance" said the lady as she poked around painfully on my arm with her fingernails.
"They never have problems taking my blood, they say I have juicy veins" I innocently stated.
"one chance is all I get, one chance, then I have to give you to someone else" states the now psychotic lady.
So..this went on for a while. She was actually hurting me with her poking and prodding on my arm. She repeated her mantra over and over. How could I have been too stupid to say "GET SOMEONE ELSE"?? So, when she did finally take out her butcher knife and bludgeon it into my arm repeatedly (ok, I'm exaggerating at this point), it hurt! I was actually breathless at this point. She wandered off to find someone else. The new lady came over, recognized me from previous visits, and said "Oh, you're easy to get blood from". I looked at her pleadingly and tried to tell her via eye contact that the other lady was the devil. The other lady lurked over us and refused to leave. The new lady took blood from my remaining arm and I didn't feel a thing!
So, if you are ever having blood drawn, if the person shows signs of not knowing how to do it....get someone else!!! If you are with someone who is incredibly rude....do your best to side with the future blood taker!
That's my lesson for the morning.
Ms X
It's true. I've been very naughty. Let me explain. First of all, I broke my phone. I really did! I'd been admiring the droids, really wanting to have one of my own. I admit, the kindle application was one of the features that most appealed to me. Though there were many things that appealed to me about it. So, I broke down and got one this weekend, because I needed a working phone, why not get the one I want? Consider it my Christmas gift to myself. I desperately tried to get the "2nd one free" for hubby. I tried and tried, they just couldn't do it. He's not eligible for an upgrade for several months. He now has serious "phone envy" and has been sulking. A lot. I'm not allowed to talk about my phone or be excited about it, due to his phone envy. So, anyway. You know my unnatural relationship with my I-pod touch? I think I'm over it now. Yes, really! I now have a disturbing relationship with my droid. I like to look at it. I like to touch it. I have it with me everywhere I go. In my truck I have a special "pedestal" for it that it charges in and I can talk on it via speaker while it sits there. I can even play music on it while it sits in its little pedestal. I think I've developed tourettes syndrome. I randomly make strange noises when I think about it or look at it. I blurt out things when I get excited. I'm pretty sure what has developed here is even more unhealthy than my previous relationship with my I-pod. Even though my son has been on my I-pod almost constantly, either reading or playing games. I know it's mad at me for leaving it behind and betraying it. I feel guilty. Then I look at my droid and feel all warm and fuzzy inside. As I type, my droid is sitting comfortably on my chest, warm and cozy. I have considered taking up knitting so I can make it little clothes. I think I'll attach special pockets to everything I wear. Yes, I am aware that I am not right in the head. I'm reminded of this daily by those who love me most. I'm ok with that. I get excited every time I get on my droid and learn new things about how to use it. I like taking it for rides in the car. I'm keeping the existence of my beloved droid a secret from most people, even members of my house. This is making my relationship even more awkward and difficult. I think it will survive, I really love it.
Ms X
Ok, sorry, I like purple and it is now officially Saturday. Just something other than "black Friday" to look at. I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving. I need to figure out what to cook tomorrow that has NOTHING to do with anything we ate for Thanksgiving! I was thinking of things to do with the turkey though...like pot pie...maybe I can get away with that.
I got tested for RA today, I'll know sometime next week if I have it. May have Osteo too. Who knows. I'll have it all figured out sooner or later. The first lady that went to take my blood today has clearly only drawn blood on hard plastic mannequins before. There really were several things that should have given me a clue that she was not yet competent in the blood drawing part of her job. She kept repeating "I only get one chance" to herself, and to me. I've NEVER heard one of them say that before. I really should have asked why she was saying that. Then she was running her fingers along my vein and pushing hard, she did that for about 2 minutes and it hurt too (all the while saying "I only get one chance, I only get one chance". Then, when she finally did stick me, I had to force myself to not fly out of the chair...OMG it hurt! Then she said "Well, it's not working, I have to find someone else" and got me a lady I've had many times. I tried to communicate with the lady I've had before via eye contact. The other lady lurked around and "observed" her doing it. I think the lady I've had before got what I was trying to say. (which was...Oh my GOD this lady is an idiot!) But, she stuck me in my other arm and got two vials out of me without hurting me at all. The doctor I saw today thinks I have RA and Osteo arthritis too, I was telling him about what's been going on with me. I was telling him how my back is, how my knees and feet and wrists are, etc. He thinks my ankle is a bad sprain. I asked him if I could still go walking through the forest this weekend, then we both laughed when I realized how absurd that sounded. I don't know if I'll be able to do it this weekend or not, I went to the store to get a birthday gift for my Godson's birthday party tomorrow and my foot/ankle were throbbing when I was done. So, I'll see how I feel after his "safari in the park" party tomorrow.
I sure do love having a LONG weekend. Can we get weekends like this every week? I'd like to put in a request! I do think I have another person living in my house now, I'm pretty sure of it. So, that brings us up to 7 people here. We're catching up to the animals! LOL
Well, I have been babbling and rambling but as usual, not saying a whole lot. Did I mention I'm usually well medicated when I blog? Earlier I was playing board games with my daughter's and a friend and they told me I acted like I was high. Well, now, that's lovely! I make myself sound like a drug addict, I'm really not. I don't take them as often as prescribed and would love another alternative. I used to be someone who wouldn't take ANYTHING. I would love to be drug and pain free. I would also love to be debt free! Oh how I would love that!!! My debts suck. A lot. I am SOOO sick of the struggle.
Okay, enough whining for now.
Ms X
I hope this post finds everyone well. I keep meaning to blog but my mind races and jumps around and I think about it when I'm not near a computer. I really don't have much to say, I have a lot to say, but, it would take up too much time. I am thinking about getting rid of this blog. But, now isn't the time for me to decide. Just wanted to stop in and say a quick hello!
Ms X
Happy Halloween! This is probably the first year I actually kind of got into it and liked it in many years. I was pleasantly surprised that the children, of all ages, were mostly polite. I enjoyed seeing the children in their costumes. I got to see two of my old daycare children and really enjoyed that! They are still as adorable as ever!!
I was in a super hyper mood tonight, worse than the children that are all sugared up!! Ok, well, I hope everyone had a great Halloween..tomorrow starts NOVEMBER. That means I get Veteran's day off, and also Thanksgiving and the day after! Yay! While I'm at it, I'll be winning the lottery in November. ;)
Ms X
Here I go, writing while medicated again. Good grief! Took me 4 tries to type the title correctly. LOL. My last post was rather lengthy, I apologize if I ramble and repeat myself. I had a LONG day at work, only been home an hour, it's 10pm. I don't know why this thing never reflects the actual time I post, but, it doesn't matter. Probably a time zone thing or something. The meeting this morning went well. Got back from that and took daughter back to doctor to make sure her arm isn't broken. No, I didn't beat the older one up. The younger one hurt herself in cheerleading and sprained it, I was just concerned that it was mis-diagnosed after everyone told me their own horror stories. My own doctor said it's fine, I trust him. Wow...it's telling me there are a lot of typos, I'm usually an anal freak about spelling and grammar but will try not to care tonight!! Anyway, was hoping to go home early today. But, we had a meeting after work that none of us knew about! Yay us! So, I go back after my daughter's appointment and immediately got sent into a classroom. It was infants, and they are VERY cute! As much as I adore them, I would rather have gone home. But, anyway, after I was done working in the infant room, it was almost time for the meeting. I have great co-workers. Thank God for that, but, would still rather have been home. My family foraged and ate leftovers because I didn't plan for the meeting and got home so late. Poor family! I got a hug from my son, who is now asleep. Yelled at the oldest on the phone on the way home. sigh. My other daughter is asleep too. I love my family, I love being with my family. I hate not getting to see them. I don't understand how so many people don't enjoy being with their children. When my husband had my daughter at my job today after her appointment, I was upset because she's not allowed in the infant room. She loves all of the kids and loves babies, but, it's a rule that the "younger" kids can't be in there. She's 14, she's 6' tall, she's been raised around other people's children. Really?? She is CPR and first aid certified. So, she has to hang out in my office if I'm in that room.
So, I don't know if I'm going to be a hippie, or just wear my pajamas to work. If I wear my pajamas, and can find my missing "rocker boot" I'll also bring a teddy bear and my monkey snuggie. Otherwise I can wear my tie dye shirt and try to find other hippie stuff. Should have thought of this sooner. Sigh. I had ideas. I work in a daycare. An evil bunny was one of them, a co-worker was willing to join me. I could be Santa Clause, but, should have thought of that before I finally had my face waxed. Nothing like confusing the kids. I do have a long red sweatshirt thing and red pajama pants that match each other...hmmm...and somewhere I have one of those hats...
A co-worker and I are going to write a Squirrel book together. I came up with all of the ideas, it's hysterical. It's a book kids would like but adults would get what's actually funny about it, kind of like a Disney movie. The weird thing is, after this book idea I have come (randomly) across tons of squirrel pictures on places like facebook. Then, a squirrel actually started coming into our yard and eating out of our hands. How weird is that??? The person working on it with me is a great artist. I'm not. Can't wait to have time for our book!
I miss my mom. A lot. It's so weird. There's just this big hole there forever now. I've lost a lot of other people that I cared about, I've shed tears for them many times and have had dreams about them. One of them is my aunt, my cousin posted an old picture of her tonight and I thought about how much I always loved her. My "grandma" died on Christmas day 2 (or 3) years ago, her passing has been the source of many tears. My "grandpa" died 9 years ago. There have been others. But, the point is, no matter how much I've thought about them, cried, had dreams, etc, nothing has compared to my mom. I don't even know how other people can deal with the losses they go through. I don't want to ever have to know. I know several people who have suffered multiple losses. I know people who've lost spouses, children, both parents, siblings, etc. My heart breaks every time someone loses someone, especially now. Someone I don't particularly like lost her brother recently. I had met him before, it broke my heart when she lost him. I know so many strong people who have been through so much more than me. They all keep me going. I know some amazing people who I adore, many of them are much older than me. Of course, we all know, just because they're older, doesn't mean I will outlive them. Though I'd prefer they live to be 130 and I live to be 100+. I always think about those people who get really old and outlive all of their descendants.
I'm SO babbling. I got a B+ in my class. Gotta send MORE stuff to them for financial aid. OMG that drives me INSANE! It had the wrong date on it when I faxed it, really??? So, yeah. I should have it straightened out and will start my next class within the next couple of weeks.
Ok, so, thanks to all of you who read my blog, I really love getting feedback and appreciate it! Debby...you are awesome! You ALWAYS make me laugh and I love you dearly!!! There have been several times I've laughed so hard I've cried while talking to you online, my family thought I was insane. How I wish we lived closer so we could get together in person!!!!
Ms X
